Forty And Full Of It

In my short 40 years I have collected some baggage. And unpacking it feels like the right thing to do.

So I have decided to start a blog. Why? For starters because I am a creative personality and sometimes you have to have an outlet! Maybe no one will care. Maybe it will be just an amazing therapeutic outpouring. That’s okay!

But as I reflected on so much of what I have been through, it started to make sense when I realized that maybe, somehow, I could make a difference. I started thinking "What's the point of having come through so much and having seen so much if it's just a movie in my head?" Maybe someone will feel better about something they are struggling with. Maybe I will make someone laugh when they really needed it. Maybe I can help someone feel less alone.

I have been told more than once by those close to me that I do too much; share to too much; go too far out of my way for others sometimes. But it's just not in my nature to sit by or turn away. I'm a fixer; always have been. I'm sure there is some dark and scary psychological reason for that...and maybe it will all become crystal clear as I am pouring out the ugliness, the beauty, the heartbreak, the successes, the let- downs, the love, the betrayals, the abuses, the lessons and the fulfillment my life has been up to this point.

I will say things that may come as a shock to some people. I will say things that may make people see me in a different light. That scares the crap out of me. But if I don't say it all then I'm not fully committing. So please stay tuned, speak-up, and join in, as I jump off of this scary and uncertain cliff.

I'm Rebecca Wilcox Bilbrey and I am 40 and Full of It!